The NaNoWriMo challenge begins in just two days. Just two. Am I nervous?
I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t.
The truth of it all is that I am extremely nervous and, at the same time, really very excited but there is some part of my brain quietly posing a seemingly simple question to me:
“Why are you doing this? What happened to you waiting until next year? You’re not ready for this.”
Okay, so it’s posing two questions and calmly stating its opinion that is driven by my own doubts that are hidden deep down inside of me. The doubt is something many of us struggle with but it is something that can be overcome if we keep pushing back and have faith in our abilities. It is something we can overcome when we have the support of friends and family to help us in the battle.
As to the questions that the mind is posing, I saw a tweet earlier that was posted by the Inkitt team and it was about NaNoWriMo. It was this:
“Because otherwise, you’ll keep putting off writing that novel for the rest of your life.”
Those words right there, that’s the answer to those questions that are mulling over in my head. If I don’t do it now, I will never do it.
Fair enough, I had a valid reason for wanting to wait until next year and that was because I wanted to do a little more research or at least, flesh out the story I had in mind a little better. But, on the flip side to that, I can use this as the opportunity to at least get the first draft of the story done, use this as a starting point to get it out of my head and onto ‘paper’ so to speak, and use this opportunity to see if I can indeed do a novel of 50k words in a month.
So, as much as there are valid reasons to want to wait, there are just as many valid reasons to want to do it this year, even if I only really decided to take on the challenge a week ago. And yes, this knowledge makes me laugh sometimes.
But sometimes you need to just take that leap into the unknown, you need to dive headfirst into those unknown waters and it is up to you to push yourself to come out of them alive. It’s either sink or swim.
So this is basically just a little post to express how I’m feeling two days away from the challenge. Nervousness (a lot of that), quite a bit of self-doubt, a lot of excitement and a good few times a day where I’m giving myself a little mental pep talk, telling myself that this can be done and that I must look at this as a learning curb, an experience that will only benefit me at the end of the day.
And to wrap it all up, I’m going to steal the line of one Mr. Deadpool:
Maximum Effort…that’s how you get things done and that’s what I’m going to apply to this challenge ahead.